"Those who go out weeping, carrying precious seed to sow, will return home rejoicing, carrying sheaves with them.” Ps. 126:5

There are tears that accompany the sowing of the message of Christ's love. The stories of the fallen, the lost, and the downtrodden are often woven through with such confusion and heartache. They take us into places so dark, where wickedness has been unleashed with its betrayals, treacheries, deceits, and deceptions, that we cannot enter and leave entirely unscathed or untouched.

A Christian carries the burdens of people whose lives have been battered and broken. To enter into their world, if only for a moment, broadens our understanding of why Jesus was called "a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief."

And so, when someone quietly gives, serves, encourages, and loves, entering into these domains of darkness, it is sometimes difficult not to wonder whether any good will come of it. The suffering can be so deep, the brokenness so complicated, and the darkness so entrenched that the seeds of love seem to disappear into the ground without a trace.

But this verse gives us the assurance that our labor is not in vain.

The promise is not that sowing will be painless, nor that every harvest will come according to our timetable. It is that God is able to bring a harvest from faithful sowing. What is planted in faith is entrusted to Him.

We may never see the full fruit of our labor, nor know how deeply a word of kindness, an act of compassion, or a seed of truth has taken root in another person's life. But we are not called to measure the harvest; we are called to faithfully sow the seed.

And it may be one day, in the presence of the One who knows every tear and sees every hidden act of love, we will discover that some of the seeds we thought were lost were quietly growing all along.

 

Towel and Sword -- 

 Night gathers early.

The room is dim.

Bread on the table.

Wine holding the last light.

Outside,

boots on stone.

Empire still turns.

Now too:

Propellers in the dark.

A drone circling above sleeping roofs.

The long whistle of a bomb.

Glass

becoming rain.

A child waking into fire.

Inside,

a bowl of water.

He stands,

slips off

his robe,

and takes up

a towel.

No one speaks.

The one

we call Lord

kneels.

Hands

in water.

Water

on skin.

Dust

giving way.

This is where

kingdom begins.

Not banners.

Not force.

Not the old grammar of power.

Water.

Hands.

A towel.

He touches what the road has hardened.

He washes what the world refuses to see.

The feet that followed.

The feet that will flee.

The feet that will carry

betrayal into the dark.

Still he kneels.

Then bread.

Before the body, the bread.

Before the wound, the sign.

Before the breaking, the table.

Even Judas

reaches out.

Even that hand

receives bread.

Already turning for the coin.

Silver.

Profit.

The price of a life.

Outside:

screens

lit blue.

Men in rooms far from blood.

A thumb on a button.

A market opening at dawn.

War shares rising.

Someone cashing in before morning.

Inside,

only this:

Love one another.

As I have

loved you.

Church—

this is the part

we cannot escape.

He knelt

with a towel.

Why do we rise

with missiles?

Why do we bless

steel, when he blessed

bread?

Why do we chase

the coin, while cities burn?

He gave us a basin.

We build arsenals.

He gave us a table.

We build

borders,

walls,

checkpoints.

He gave us

bread and wine.

We trade in oil,

in bodies,

in fear.

The night

deepens.

The trees

seem to listen.

Peter reaches for the sword.

Still believing force can save.

Steel flashes.

A body flinches.

An ear falls.

And then:

No.

Put it away.

Not like this.

Never like this.

Not by conquest.

Not by fear.

Not by bombs

released from clean hands.

Not by drones that never see the face.

The towel is still wet.

The bowl still trembling.

The hands that washed feet

will be bound before dawn.

The body

that knelt

will be stripped

by noon.

He refuses the sword.

Empire kills him anyway.

Still

he does not

return violence.

Still

he gives himself.

Still

he breaks

like bread.

Still

he pours out

like wine.

Church—

the towel is still in our hands.

What are we making with it?

It waits there.

Heavy with water.

Heavy with dust.

Heavy with mercy.

I want to believe

we still know

what it is for.

Rev'd Jon Swales Easter 2026

Artwork. Albert Edelfelt, Jesus washes his disciples feet

 

At the women’s Jail service last night, the first to arrive was a woman in her fifties with a spreading smile and a twinkle in her blue eyes. 

She looked Irish to the core from her ruddy skin and flaming red hair, set off by a burnished brown ski hat and coat, that I’m sure you could count on to keep you warm down to sub-zero temperatures! 

She had a commanding presence with a “don’t-mess-with-me” look, or so she struck me. Sadly, she lacked all her teeth but she didn’t appear to be self-conscious about it. 

One by one, four other women entered and our “church” congregation was complete. 

Four of the women were Christians and one held to Pantheism, where God is not a separate, personal, or supernatural creator standing outside the world, but rather the sum total of all physical and spiritual reality. 

Pantheists aren’t uncommon, and I’m pleased to have other faiths join us. 

The direction I take is to simply go through passages that are potent for the marginal Christians and those unfamiliar with Christ’s words. Last night’s topic was the Sermon on the mount, the first nine verses. 

Simply put, I let Jesus speak for Himself, and with each sentence I would ask how it struck them? 

In small groups usually some are eager to speak and that opens the way for all to talk. 

The Pantheist was struck by each verse and had some interesting insights which led to all feeling comfortable and willing to open up.

In these meetings the presence of the Holy Spirit is almost palpable, creating immediate connections with the group and…… well, words fail me. 

When the meeting came to an end, and after prayer the women filed out, but one lady stopped and asked if she could have the papers I taught from with all the scriptures and the notes. 

I had my head down gathering up my Bible and notes, and when I looked up to hand them to her, I realized it was the Pantheist that wanted them! 

“And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.” John 12:32 

 “My work here is not to satisfy people’s appetite for speculation,

but to serve practical needs:

to preach to the weary,

to comfort the sick,

to help the repentant,

to challenge the overconfident,

and to strengthen weak hands and feeble knees.

I have little else left to me by which to give alms or practice the kind of charity by which we will be judged on the Day of Judgment.

It is enough for me to be a lowly builder in God’s house, and I take pride in the work.

I labor on the foundations,

so the work needs no apology for being plain,

as long as it is strong and well laid.

But, my Lord, humble as it is, I must thank God for the desire and the strength....”

Jeremy Taylor.

 

“Sometimes a kind of glory lights up the mind of a man. 

It happens to nearly everyone. 

You can feel it growing or preparing like a fuse burning toward dynamite. 

It is a feeling in the stomach,

a delight of the nerves, of the forearms. 

The skin tastes the air, 

and every deep-drawn breath is sweet. 

Its beginning has the pleasure of a great stretching yawn; it flashes in the brain and the whole world glows outside your eyes.

 A man may have lived all of his life in the gray, 

and the land and trees of him dark and somber. 

The events, even the important ones, 

may have trooped by faceless and pale. 

And then-the glory-

so that a cricket song sweetens his ears, 

the smell of the earth rises chanting to his nose, 

and dappling light under a tree blesses his eyes. 

Then a man pours outward, a torrent of him, 

and yet he is not diminished. 

And I guess a man's importance in the world can be measured by the quality and number of his glories. 

It is a lonely thing but it relates us to the world. 

It is the mother of all creativeness, and it sets each man separate from all other men.”

I think Steinbeck is suggesting that the measure of a life is not simply what a person accomplishes, accumulates, or experiences outwardly, 

but how deeply he has awakened to life itself.

 Jesus said - “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” 

I think the most abundant experiences like those described by Steinbeck 

are found in the realm of faith.

 No doubt there are experiences like this in romantic infatuation, in moments of creative inspiration, but none so profound as moments of spiritual clarity. 

“A person can possess great wealth, education, position, and achievement and still live in the gray.  Another person may possess very little materially but experience life with extraordinary richness.

“There is also an interesting spiritual parallel here. 

What Steinbeck describes resembles those moments when the Holy Spirit opens our eyes to something we had previously understood only intellectually. 

A familiar Scripture suddenly becomes alive. 

A person we might otherwise overlook becomes precious. An ordinary moment becomes sacred. 

We find ourselves filled with something that makes us want to pour love into others.

Perhaps the most beautiful thought in the entire passage is this:

There are moments when life becomes so full within us that we cannot help but pour it outward. 

And in giving ourselves away, 

we discover that we have become richer, not poorer.

That, I think, is one of the great paradoxes of both human love and Christian discipleship.”

This quote is from Steinbeck’s book, “East of Eden” and serves as a warning to us all –

The glory of love can transform our experience of life,

even when it rests upon an illusion.

Adam's love awakened something beautiful within him, though the woman he loved did not possess the goodness he imagined.

“Adam Trask grew up in grayness,

and the curtains of his life were like dusty cobwebs,

and his days a slow file of half-sorrows and sick dissatisfactions,and then, through Cathy, the glory came to him.

It doesn't matter that Cathy was what I have called a monster.”

Perhaps the deeper warning is this:

We must learn to recognize the capacity for both good and evil in ourselves, while being careful not to confuse the goodness we see in someone with the goodness that actually resides in them.

I’ve included the balance of the quote here if you want to read it.

“Perhaps we can't understand Cathy, but on the other hand we are capable of many things in all directions,

of great virtues and great sins.

And who in his mind has not probed the black water?

Maybe we all have in us a secret pond where evil and ugly things germinate and grow strong.

But this culture is fenced, and the swimming brood climbs up only to fall back.

Might it not be that in the dark pools of some men the evil grows strong enough to wriggle over the fence and swim free?

Would not such a man be our monster, and are we not related to him in our hidden water?

It would be absurd if we did not understand both angels and devils, since we invented them.

Whatever Cathy may have been, she set off the glory in Adam.

His spirit rose flying and released him from fear and bitterness and rancid memories.

The glory lights up the world and changes it the way a star shell changes a battleground.

Perhaps Adam did not see Cathy at all, so lighted was she by his eyes.

Burned in his mind was an image of beauty and tenderness, a sweet and holy girl,

precious beyond thinking, clean and loving,

and that image was Cathy to her husband, and nothing Cathy did or said could warp Adam's Cathy.”

-East of Eden by John Steinbeck (chapter 13)

 There's an old country song that says - 

"All the girls get prettier at closin' time

They all begin to look like movie stars." 

When I saw this meme I didn't exactly know where I was going with it, but even if you’ve never had so much as a sip of alcohol or a single puff of anything, the devil's crafty wiles can cast a spell that even the most devout will find hard to resist. It may be as simple as twilight, “The hour when ordinary things turn quietly enchanted.”  “Betrayal rarely arrives with a knock. It slips in through the door we left unlatched while we were busy surviving. A kindness offered at the right hour can feel like grace, and still be a door that shouldn’t be opened.”

“The fall is rarely a leap. It is a series of small permissions. Guard the gate when you are strong, because you will not be able to when you are weak. The stranger is rarely the cause. The stranger is the occasion. The cause was the unattended need. Faithfulness is not only refusing the last step. It is refusing the first, quiet one.”

1 Corinthians 10:12: “Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall.”

 

 “Now as I look back a little,

I see that some of my worst experiences have not hurt or injured me at all.

I do not claim more than my share of troubles,

but "I have had trouble enough for one," as Browning says, —bereavements, disappointments,

the illness of those I have loved, illness of my own,

quarrels, misunderstandings,

enmities, angers, disapprovals, losses;

I have made bad mistakes, I have failed in my duty,

I have done many things that I regret,

I have been unreasonable, unkind, selfish.

Many of these things have hurt and wounded me,

have brought me into sorrow, and even into despair.

But I do not feel that any of them have really injured me, and some of them have already benefited me.

I have learned to be a little more patient and diligent,

and I have discovered that there are certain things

that I must, at all costs, avoid.

But there is one thing which seems to me to have always and invariably hampered and maimed me,

whenever I have yielded to it,

and I have often yielded to it;

and that is Fear.” Arthur C. Benson.

‘Do not fear, for I am with you;

Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,

Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Is. 41:10