II got permission to share this and I'm eager to do so!

This woman has gone through life's most difficult circumstances, and yes, she was broken and near death until she met Jesus, and OH!!!! What healing he brought her!

"My mother was a paranoid schizophrenic, and my father was a megalomaniac who sexually abused me--incest.

I attached to neither.

Rather, I attached to my brother 7 years older than me,

and he loved me, doted on me, thought I was the best gift to him in the world.

That ‘saved’ me from dying in infancy as my mother never comforted or held her babies.

It’s all very complicated but the survival system in my brain (fight/flight/freeze)

opened and stuck in a locked position causing my adrenals to overwork,

my brain was constantly overdosed with hormones, cortisol, adrenaline constantly flowing and I learned many erroneous defense mechanisms which turned into untoward learned behaviors.

I’ve been in healing ministry with Jesus for 15 years.

Healing begins with forgiveness.

He cleared away the erroneous foundation in me,

wiped it clean and simply began teaching me in the way a child should go.

Right now, we’re dealing with undoing the wrong attachment to my elder brother and attaching to our Father and Jesus only.

Because of the above (which is brief) during the first 14 years of my Christian life walking with Jesus beginning at age 50, I was shunned by pastors, shunned by 2 churches,

twice locked into psychiatric wards for what doctors deemed ‘psychotic’ behaviors (8 fragments in my mind), lost all civil liberties and drugged.

I was diagnosed as being an Alcoholic,

diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder,

Attachment Disorder,

Major Anxiety Disorder,

Dependent Personality Disorder,

Borderline Personality Disorder,

with suicidal ideation, C-PTSD, and other terms I cannot remember.

All believers abandoned me, but 2.

My immediate family were all dead and I was estranged from my 2 daughters.

No one within the secular or Christian realm of psychiatry could or did help me.

Only Jesus. Jesus and me.

On top of all that, I had many wounds,

the embittered root systems of incest/sexual abuse,

fear/terror, lies, abandonment,

rejection, neglect, death ideation,

isolation, hyper-vigilance,

psychotic behaviors (fragmentation),

survival system injuries,

deadened emotions,

deadened conscience,

erratically systemic bodily functions,

myriad erroneously learned behaviors,

alcoholism,

I was a de-humanized creature, with a deeply rooted fear of all people, all the preceding exacerbated through freemasonry within my familial generational lineage.

For all of the above, I was a completely shattered person who ran all over the world from trauma, was homeless, raped and the list goes on.

Because of my experiential knowledge I am quite able to minister to the homeless, alcoholics, street people etc.,

because I understand the journey of pain

and when it’s left on its own the damaging effects it has on everyone.

Jesus walks the streets with me, Jesus ministers to people through my spoken and written words.

It is Jesus Who heals. Only Jesus.

Thank You, Jesus!"