Trigger warning - suicide

Suicide - some answers..

 I'm no expert on suicide but in my extended family there have been 3 suicides, so I've pondered it a lot. 

There are dark seasons we all go through at one point or another, and needless to say, if one takes their life it is the darkest season they've ever faced. 

Some struggle with depression for years for various reasons, and child abuse, in all its hideous forms, are top of the list. 

But even someone whose life has been great, but suddenly a single tragedy strikes, like the loss of a sibling, a child, or even a loved friend, can cause such shock, and feelings so intense, and they've never felt anything like this before, it can seem overwhelming. 

Of course some medications have suicide risks, and then there are horrid mistakes we've made in the heat of the moment and when a cooler head returns, we feel we can't live with or forgive ourselves for. 

I'm sure there are other causes as well, but I'm convinced of this, a person's life and value is not to be judged by their lowest point, and I believe God does not judge us at our worst, nor should we. 

 The hardest part for those left behind is the haunting questions, "Why" and "What could I have done." And of course they are never answered.... 

Lastly I'll share this piece, I think it is so well said ----- 

"The so-called 'psychotically depressed' person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so because death seems suddenly appealing. 

The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. 

Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e., the fear of falling remains a constant. 

The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors.

It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. 

And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. 

You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."