The following story was in The Ladies Home
Journal, a widely read magazine in the 19th and 20th
century; I’m not sure if it’s still in print now but it tells a pathetic story
of a mother and her child’s disobedience and how she was punished. I was
surprised to read the punishment the mother chose, always believing parenting
was far more strict than today. The story, although dated, has a rich moral
lesson with principles as relevant for today as ever. I left the story
wondering if we have learned much over the last 100 years.
My child was so sensitive, so like that
little shrinking plant that curls at the breath, and shuts its heart from the
light.
The only beauties she
possessed were an exceedingly transparent skin and the most mournful, large
blue eyes.
I had been trained by a very stern, strict, conscientious
mother, but I was a hard plant, rebounding after every shock; misfortune could
not daunt, though discipline tamed me. I fancied, alas! That I must go through
the same routine with this delicate creature; so one day, when she had
displeased me exceedingly by repeating an offense, I was determined to punish
her severely. I was very serious all day, and upon sending her to her little
couch I said: “Now my daughter, to punish you, and show you how very, very
naughty you have been, I shall not kiss you tonight.”
She stood looking at me, astonishment
personified, with her great mournful eyes wide open – I suppose she had
forgotten her misconduct till then; and I left her with big tears dropping down
her cheeks, and her little red lips quivering.
Presently I was sent for.
“Oh, mamma! You will kiss me; I can’t go to sleep if you don’t!” she sobbed,
every tone of her voice trembling, and she held out her little hands.
Now came the struggle
between love and what I falsely termed my duty. My heart said to give her a
kiss of peace; my stern nature urged me to persist in my correction, that I
might impress the fault upon her mind. This was the way I had been trained,
till I was a most submissive child; and I remembered how I had often thanked my
mother since for her straightforward course.
I knelt by the bedside. “Mother can’t kiss
you, Ellen,’ I whispered, though every word choked me. Her hand touched mine;
it was very hot, I attributed it to her excitement. She turned her little
grieving face to the wall; I blamed myself as the fragile form shook with
self-suppressed sobs, saying to her: “Mother hopes little Ellen will learn to
mind her after this, “ and I left the room for the night. Alas! In my desire to
be severe I forgot to be forgiving.
It must have been twelve o’clock when I was
awakened by my nurse. Apprehensive, I ran eagerly to the child’s chamber;
Ellen did not know me. She was sitting up,
crimsoned from the forehead to the throat, her eyes so bright that I almost
drew back aghast at their glances.
From that night a raging fever drank up her
life; and what think you was the incessant plaint that poured into my anguished
heart? “Oh, kiss me, mamma, do kiss me; I can’t go to sleep. I won’t be naughty
if you’ll only kiss me! Oh! Kiss me, dear mamma; I can’t go to sleep.”
Little angel! She did go to sleep one gray
morning, and she never woke again, never! Her hand was locked in mine, and all
my veins grew icy with its gradual chill. Faintly the light faded out of the
beautiful eyes; whiter and whiter grew the tremulous lips. She never knew me;
but with her last breath she whispered: “I will be good, mamma, if you’ll only
kiss me.”
Kiss her! God knows how passionate but
unavailing were my kisses upon her cheek and lips after that fatal night.
God know how wild were my
prayers that she might know, if but only once, that I kissed her. God knows how
I would have yielded up my very life, could I have asked her forgiveness of
that sweet child.
2 comments:
Sheesh, what a depressing story good God! Ugh.
In my desire to be severe I forgot to be forgiving.
This is a very big mistake most parents do and regret later.
Thanks for this heart touching story.
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