The following piece by Arthur Benson describes childhood like few things I've ever read. I love to reminisce, to understand and when occasion arises, to teach children.
Once or twice he went away from home
on a visit, and because he wept on his departure, he was supposed to have a
tender and emotional nature; it was not tenderness, at least not tenderness for
others, that made him weep. It was partly the terror of the unknown and the
unfamiliar; it was partly the interruption to the even tenor of his life and
the customary engagements of his day; and in this respect the boy had what may
be called a middle-aged temperament, an intense dislike of any interference
with his own ways; he had no enterprise, none of the high-hearted enjoyment of
novelty, unless he was surrounded by a bulwark of familiar personalities; but
partly, too, his love was all given to inanimate things; and as he drove out of
the gate on one of these visits, the thought that the larches of the copse
should be putting out their rosy buds, the rhododendrons thrusting out their
gummy, spiky cases, the stream passing slowly through its deep pools, the
beehive in the little birch avenue beginning to wake to life, and that he
should not be there to go his accustomed rounds, and explore all the minute
events of his dear domain: it was this that brought out the tears afresh, with
a bitter, uncomforted sense of loss and bereavement.
So the early years passed for the boy, in a dream full to the brim of
small wonders and fragrant mysteries. How pleasant it was to sink to sleep on
summer evenings with the imagination of voyaging all night in a little boat or
carriage; how delightful to wake, with the morning sun streaming in at the window,
to hear the casement ivy tap on the pane, and to rehearse in the mind all the
tiny pleasures of the long day. His short lessons were easy enough for the boy;
he was quick and acute, and had a good memory; but he took not the smallest
interest in them, except the interest of making a situation go smoothly; the
only interest was in the thought of the unmolested lonely play that was to
follow. He cared little for games, though they had a certain bitter excitement,
the desire of emulation, the joy of triumph about them. He loved best an
aimless wending from haunt to haunt, an accumulation of small treasures in
places unknown to others; and, most of all, the rich sense of observation of a
hundred curious and delicate things; the nests of birds in the shrubbery, the
glossy cones of the young pines, the green, uncurling fingers of the bracken,
the fresh green sword-grass that grew beneath the firs; he did not care to know
the nature of the reasons of these things; it was enough simply to see them, to
explore them with restless fingers, to recognize their scents, hues, and savors,
with the sharp and unblunted perceptions of childhood."
1 comment:
Hello Fred,
Very interesting.
Best wishes
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